I am addicted. I painted a stain on Saturday, and got such a rush from it, that when Sunday came, and the sun came out, I couldn’t help but feel the urge to go outside and paint more. So I did. By myself. A little confession from me to you – that scared me a little bit. Being the weird artsy kids on the street together is one thing, being it all by yourself is another. But no fear is going to hold this girl back, so I packed my backpack, grabbed my bike and left on a mission.
It wasn’t that bad at all. In fact, it was really good. It was sunny and peaceful and quiet. I just sat and painted. And I was really happy I didn’t stay inside sulking about what I could have been doing.
This little anecdote comes with two morals. One: Overcoming your fear will make you feel good about yourself. Two: The only real boundary you have is you.
I do not want to live in a closed off box. The one that opens up when it really really needs to, but normally is conveniently and comfortably closed. It is good to realize something might scare you, even if it is only enough to make you slightly uncomfortable. Then, rationalize your fear, and do it anyway. 9 out of 10 scenarios we are scared off never happen. Don’t let it define your actions.
The only real boundary you have is you. Of course, for everything in life there are practicalities that you need to deal with. But that’s not what I am talking about here. I am talking about you making your life-story a happy one; you have the world at your feet and endless possibilities. You owe it to yourself to make the most out of your life in every possible way. And I am not talking ambitious here. It is not necessarily about that dream job, and that life goal and those travels you are dreaming about. I am talking about a Sunday afternoon and doing what makes you happy, even if chances are that the process might make you slightly uncomfortable at first.
I am not saying you should all go out and paint stains. That happens to be what I like to do, but chances are you will have your own version of fooling around and feeling energized from it. Think about it for a moment. Think outside your life and routine. Think about the silly little thoughts that pop in your head and you often directly wave away again. I live on these thoughts. I cherish them and feed them and carry them out as much as possible. Don’t rationalize too much. I wouldn’t do half the things that make me really happy, if I only would do them if they rationally sounded like a good idea (why would I go smear paint on the street? It doesn’t make sense in any way if you think about it too much) And never let a lack of time be your excuse. I finished this stain in about 1,5 hour. That’s not even close to the average time people spent daily watching TV.
So, think silly thoughts, and go live out your hopes and dreams :)